“The Truth”

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As I close the my first season of, “My Lid-Less Mind” Blog, I would like to thank each of you. Thank you for the love and support you’ve expressed through your comments, your personal testimonies, as well as sharing my blog. THANK YOU! It has brought me so much joy to see others enjoy my personal life, experiences and truth.

I’m still growing..

It took me a while to come up with a title for this blog, and what better way to end this season, with the TRUTH.

In my current life, I’m still dealing with depression. I still wake up in the morning not wanting to get out of bed, and instead, I just lay there and think about where I am not in life. I still struggle with the thought of  whether I want to live or die. My smile only on shows my teeth, but not the hurt and pain behind it. I know you’re reading this and saying HOW? WHAT? HUH? Not Greg! Yes Greg!!!

Greg is still trying to find himself in a world where he doesn’t feel love or loved. Greg is still seeking attention from toxic people who are no good for him. Greg is still the backbone for others, even though they aren’t being his backbone.

I’m not okay, but I’m fighting to be. A co-worker said to me a few months ago, “Don’t let people get to you, you’ll get over it”. Damn!  I wish God made me like that, strong enough to brush off pain, betrayal, and people just being trash to me! I wish GOD MADE ME LIKE THAT SO I WOULDN’T CARE! I wish I didn’t care when people didn’t share my blog, but would share other pointless bullshit. I wish I didn’t care when others show love and support to those who don’t do shit for them. I wish I didn’t care when others are not consistent with me like I am with them. I just wish I didn’t care at all.

But I do.

Everyday I say to myself, “Greg you’re still growing, its not over”. I have to encourage myself, sometimes just to keep a smile on my face, and to keep from crying. Readers, please believe me when I say, I’m going to be okay. Just pray for me, and I’ll be praying for you. I’ve decided to seek professional help, praying this will be the start to getting out of this dark hole. I can’t wait to tell you guys about my journey in Season 2 of “ My Lid-Less Mind”.

Signed- #AGrowingKing

8 thoughts on ““The Truth”

  1. Every time you put your name i put mine and the statements were all too factual.. i read this and cried because in pain you feel like no one else is this deep in pain. Thank you for speaking up and
    Allowing the TRUTH to be spread.. ✊🏾

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  2. This post took a lot of courage! I pray that you find a way to overcome the depression because you’re such an awesome person and deserve nothing but the good things in life. Take things one step at a time…and as you go through your journey realize that you are sooo loved and the ones matter will always be there for you❤ The good thing about bad relationships is they are great teachers of what you don’t want in the future! Learn the hard lesson now so that you can pass this test! I can identify with how you feel because I have been there. Hell, I still visit from time to time…lol.

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  3. Congratulations..on your 1st season..Keep pressing it takes a strong person..that’s a son of Preacher’s..to speak so openly about things that happen in life..Yes they might look at you and say,”No not Greg” but you are human. So you will go through somethings in this Lifetime..that will have you questioning a lot. But you are still growing so keep pressing..Waiting on next season..Got you in my Prayers..keep me in yours💋

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  4. I’m so proud of you Greg and the man that God is shaping you into be. People think we don’t hurt or feel pain but we do. I understand how it can hurt when loved ones don’t support you but will support others. God allow us to see the truth even in ppl who are close to us. We just have to pray and walk and continue to pray and walk and continue to pray and walk and hold God accountable for His word and trust Him. I know it’s easier said than done but that’s what we call faith ❤️. Paul said “we press towards the mark”. So if we’re pressing that means we’re fighting against something or in many cases some things. However, the work He started He will finish. God stands on His word. As I always say continue to let Him use you. Your story is helping so many other. To God be the glory! Great season! I love you 😘

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  5. i don’t where God is taking you but your testimony is going to change lives. The battle you’re fighting could be to save others keep telling your truth God is up to something. Love you little bro now how do I share this 🤔😂😂😂😂

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